trained without being trained

Today is the day to return to the normalcy which consumes us into daily routine. Yet, somehow, there is the preponderance of a suggestion, a new growth and language or theory that comes to speak of the new world to come. Where I belong in this communicative link, is an extraordinary question which cannot be determined through an ordinary reality or life.

I have come to understand the presence of this society and of nature itself, to be built upon the necessity of a slight degree of instability, always striving to achieve balance. A physicist I know, who is strongly rooted in Newtonian theory, determines our existence is merely temporary, to be destroyed and restarted within a ‘rubber band-like’ cycle. Therefore, if we destroy ourselves ‘properly’, the universe would capsize unto itself and achieve a moment of static foundation where it finds a transient millisecond of true balance, only to rebound and restart the cycle of expansion again. In his mind, annihilation, if done for scientific purpose, is absolute, probably necessary and definitely a plausible expected outcome. Therefore, though he might live a conservationists lifestyle by most definitions, he thinks to inquire, study, use and if ‘accidentally’ destroyed to beyond useful purpose, the universe will simply right itself due to a law of rebounding. He also has no belief in an actual universal consciousness, and remarks humans to be singular individual entities on only a path of curiosity and discovery. In that light, we are not to be keepers and maintain balance, but rather, we are here to learn by dissemination before creating restructure—as we must become master of knowledge before keeper of our world.

How odd this sounds to me, as his life ultimately had to be saved by achieving a self-balance state. In his belief structure, he is without regard for a possibility of an ‘after-life’ – though he does acknowledge that energy and atoms are ‘recycled’ to a new purpose throughout all universes. Therefore, death is a total cease to exist of himself, while he is here to experience all he can. So he challenged death to come to him when he lost balance in his life, he challenged death to take him, when his fear of death no longer exceeded his will to experience life, he almost died.

He sought balance through wishing death. How sad it was as he lay in medical need. A brilliant mind and talent, he was wasting away within a belief structure that could not be proven or denied, willfully deciding on a fate that was not his to make at the time.

I wonder about the analogy of this and today’s times. There has been the “X” generation, a ‘me’, a ‘Y’, a ‘hippie’, a ‘yippie’ and ‘yuppies’ that have come and gone. They were trained in the ways of self-glorification through adornment of brand labels that glittered and cast imageries of Hollywood starlets, regardless of their original values. we became the trained walking billboards for the majority corporations and labels--- we became, part of the advertising model for wielding brand power, while not part of the corporate team. Worse still, we replaced quality and ethical technologies with labels that represented mass production gimmicks. it became the conundrum that shaped our latch key children for the last three decades.

In this model, we chose to become imbalanced by placing values on an altered identity, rather than seek our true selves. How perfect—for the profit raiders. Blindness is the greatest weakness humanity can offer to become vulnerable. As with the physicist who chooses to challenge universal consciousness and defy death, this self-inflicted blindness creates the model for the new ideal that proposes denial of intuitive faith by way of theories and things justifiable, rather than allow for the supposition of the impossible. In this manner, we easily trade truths for proposals and speculations. We become the grey area, the socialized model of mediocrity – the expected ‘sheep’ for the lackluster shepherds led by greed rather than by necessity and invention. We expect another to be blamed, and responsibilities to be shed and cast away beyond our duty.

We have been trained well, without being trained.