27 March 2010

how can global peace be found outside without knowing peace inside?

Where has compassion and congeniality gone? Where is the truth of peaceable solutions and resolve? Where is there a moment of peace without a political or corporatized under current? When is 'enough' realized?
The modern “western” world of mass production, rapid transit and instantaneous services has brought about an air of convenience and personal convictions of desire. Dreams are made to not be broken, but to be made and outdone. Rewards are materialistic and spontaneity has become a norm. Conversation is restricted to the ‘new’ shortened language (as seemingly predicted by Orwell) in the form of SMS, email and informal slang--- of which, actual translation and interpretation of the person, becomes lost to overwhelming pushes of spam that divide our attention. Our sights become shorter in distance and the essence of origin and humility is forgotten to endless consumption without grace or gratefulness. All these ‘neo-philosophical commandments’, not for humanity or inner growth but rather, justified by the idea that we must forge human survival on profit and business.
In the midst of the ‘new order’, the medical annals continue to study the population’s increasingly disturbed symptoms in reaction to stress. It has been compared to ‘fright or flight’ syndrome. So many personal acquaintances are often speaking of how they ‘wish to get away’, ‘wish for another life’, ‘wish to be at another job’, ‘wish to be with someone else’, ‘wish to be someone else’. These are not necessarily ‘dreams’ to be fulfilled, but statements made as ordinary conversation. These are not wanton and needy persons, but rather, successful, well-to-do, competitive and ambitious people who state they love challenges and growth. They say they are grateful for their fortunate circumstances. Yet, they continue to feel amiss.
It is here I cannot help but wonder--- what is the state of their inner being they have not yet recognized the essence of the challenges, yet fortuitous karma they have been given? Perhaps in another life they suffered, endured and have been rewarded this time. Yet, in this ‘reward’, all the suffering forgotten, they long for more. They have been taught to run and move away from bad roommates in college, to separate from materially non-fulfilling relationships, to switch positions or companies from ‘bad boss syndromes’. Nothing is good enough, nothing is satisfying enough. Once is not enough. Life is not enough. Conversation is a ‘lost art’ and reality television or glamour gossip has replaced life with global conviction.
How fortunate we are, to afford to move or separate so easily? Some have become financially so ‘successful’ that they can buy their future away from negative fate itself. If they must face any discourse or anxiety, they need not face the challenge of truly communicating to find peace, but rather, can purchase ‘masker’ prescriptions or simply, ‘find another place to live’. Yet, unlike centuries past, we are able to move thousands of miles in a day with a little preparation, or, for the affluent, immediately if assistance is purchased. It seems some have become quite adept at ‘flight’ and live a constant state of ‘fright’ of conflict, ‘ugliness’, disagreeable terms or situations not to one’s pleasure.
Yet after the ‘flight’, the conflict does not seem to end. Instead, there is a continuous air of inner ‘non-security’, the fright. “Talk is cheap” is the mantra and conversation remains shallow at best.
I cannot but beg to ask, how is it the world has been ‘trained’ to emulate the neo-modern ‘western’ culture of spoils, in the quest of global peace? There is nothing wrong with seeking successes over ambition, but what of the inner balance that must so often be cast aside for the chance to seek glory in a material world. But what of those that do not remember their way to the inner world? Why has it become necessary to know the things of the 'convenience society' or of the 'rich and famous' to find self-worth?
How can peace be found or realized in such state?

13 February 2010

human spiritual evolution

In the course of human events, the Maya describe how the 'world' as we know it has been destroyed in several civilizations and we are about to embark on yet another destruction. More accurately, human generated self-destruction. We may blame it on a lexicon of events-- as though we enter the nexuses and cannot continue. Perhaps there is another thought to consider. It seems humanity itself, like children wide-eyed by their first sense of control over a toy or mastering the first sand castle, enjoys the thrills of power and envelopment of existence to their command. The sheer joy and pleasure of the physical begs us to turn away from a universal consciousness that drives our inner spirits-- the spiritual world. We are so concerned with advancements of the physical world through technology, education (as we define it), finances, expansion-- that it seems the very balance of the physical and spiritual is condemned by most of the 'developed civilizations'.

I question then, what have we learned from history of previous great 'civilizations'? Many were formidably advanced for their times. We have yet to explain the mysteries of how pyramids and strange devices were built in Egypt. But each society ended as it found itself in a moment of emptiness of spirit as chaos lay before them. To me, it seems each society had evolved their physical and material ends but never quite found way to evolve their spiritual balances.

I suppose I wonder if that is the same status now? The precipices of the positive values of all the religions around the world (including those that I may not be fond of, considered modern 'cults') -- are always founded on principles of good. Along the way though, the physical values for material culture seemed to have crept in, as a hierarchy develops in each religion, requiring a power struggle and structure. It seems humanity cannot function without a contrived structure and a human derived, human judged system of values. We seem to fear not being able to place a judgement value on all things and persons more than fearing the chaos that we think will occur if we do not have this. Yet all of these labels were historically set into place as power plays by other humans.

What if, to save humanity, it is these very values and historically predetermined, unevolved spiritual values that are the things that deny us the peaceful unity we seek? What if we were able to teach each other ways to connect to the universal consciousness that we would find the confidence to know we are fulfilling the destiny we were born to follow? What if to do so, means to deny the value systems in place by the currently large organized and accepted 'religions' of the world?

This is in no way to negate their functions. Again, the precipices were founded on positive principles. But perhaps these have become tainted by the powerplays of humans along the way. Perhaps, it is time to allow a spiritual evolution that questions rules set by humans not free of their child-self 'ids'.

In a spiritual evolution, there must be consideration that we are all from the source of the same universal consciousness, we are all potentially constructed of molecules from the original 'Big Bang' and that we all potentially may contain a 'spark' of an atomic energy from the original source, that Christians may call God and the Holy Spirit. That would logically mean we could all tap into a 'God soul'-- a connected, perfect soul--- that would guide us to our purpose.

It is a fearful thing to trust and allow this. It could mean that centuries of human faith may be proven shallow and immaterial to the sense of universal flow. It may mean those in the upper eschelon of societies are actually the most lost, misdirected and impassionate. It could strike a blow in each of us if we find all of our beloved comfort levels of acceptability, terms of behavior, laws and assumed values of right and wrong--- no longer matter.

But what if? What if this is the path to enlightenment? To discard all the things the physical has taught us, to find the unity of the spirit and the body by accepting a higher sense of order that is beyond our capacity to see and describe in human form?

What are we in the scheme of things?

Many times were spent under a tree or walking alone in a mountain forest pondering what might be the total essence of the 'whole person'. Sure, each are born, raised, taught, influenced, guided, grown and set on a path to propagate the cycle. Every 'living' creature (or plant) is given that task. Yet, what else? What more? Somehow, there is this interconnectedness that mates each of our existences into the universe, as bound by a duty on this planet surviving in it's biosphere by an underlying symbiosis of life. Surely, there must be more?

Here in lies my personal quest. Countless hours, lost moments spent on the visions from deep dreams of another time at night, while thoughts sent from an unknown would permeate conscious meditation. In between, the doldrums of school, life activities, work, relationships would suffice to fill the time when the mind needed respite from the altered connection to the unknown that could not be described.

I suppose by some standards, there are those who would laughingly call this a form of insanity or perhaps a drug induced psychosis, especially 30 to 40 years ago. Perhaps, as I was certainly in a non-standard, abusive household with more than its share of difficulties. Yet, I fulfilled all of life's little physical 'tasks' as the 'perfect child' for years, labeled as gifted in music, in arts, in scholastics and aptitude, athletic, creative, accomplished. I performed over two dozen instruments, sang, won ribbons in science fairs, skipped grades and scored highly on tests. And learned to cut and perm hair, alter clothing, make costumes, and even cook fancy meals, bake and decorate cakes along the way. And I rebeled lightly in the teen years during college, then continued on my own life path soon after graduation. Of course I made a lot of mistakes along the way and made choices that many would question, but I could only make the choices that seem right for me to follow after a while. Physical life becomes just that eventually, for everyone I suppose. Considering all of the events, actually, the standards of pressures placed on today's children, I would be quite ordinary. And as ordinary, I did not stand out too much, or become famous (or 'infamous' for that matter), or known as more than 'ordinary'.

Oddly enough, I did find it strange that many things came easily to me. I would 'hear' music and compose. It was as though an unseen guide would tell me how to solve many problems. Not everything was perfectly easy, of course, but it was like there was something there to move my thoughts, my hands and energy into place when it was needed. I've heard some others speak or write about that, but these are the things that are not quite explicable in this world.

It begs again the question, what is this unseen, unknown connection? Why was it here to assist me, or was I 'gifted' with a connection to it? The 'unknown' guide was like a grand consciousness that would sometimes give me hints along the way. For example, I had a horrible vision of a bridge collapsing due to an earthquake. Thirty days later, there was the same bridge from the earthquake in California in the late eighties. Sometimes, I'd feel the need to phone or visit someone and that person was indeed needy, or at a time of passing. Another time, I painted an outlandish modern styled painting. It was painted in the late eighties. Eerily, it had the picture of an airplane flying into two towers in a setting that seemed like NYC, but the ground below became a sink hole and the earth was swallowing masses of material pleasures with it. Even I'd forgotten the subject matter until after...

There are many records of people around the world with small coincidences (or larger ones), or psychics and the search for the connection to the unknown, God, Allah, Buddha, enlightenment, nirvana, the afterlife---- There are many people more sensitive and unable to function in this physical world. There are those who deliberately choose to ignore the unknown. However so, we are all interlinked in an amazing discovery life pattern that weaves all of our energies into a complex larger unit of life. Some can visualize this during meditation. Indigenous and mystics have called this a series of light tunnels, connections or web--- each linking every unit of life together into a synchronized universe for better or worse. Death and life, negative and positive, balance within this form to continue the momentum of life.

It seems then there is a universal consciousness, as some would say that would direct such. In this vast measure of things, we can only imagine the microcosm of a unit that each of us are. Yet, how vital, as if all of those connections would be suddenly interrupted, if we were to 'disconnect' from the giant web of energy bonds.

So again, in this perspective, what are we in the scheme of things? To which I can only assume-
to each his/her own destiny; to each, his/her own discovery.

30 November 2009

attempting to understand the idea of inadequacy

The climate of the world created by modernism seems so to crave social control that it denies an individual person their value. We are so subject to the comparative statistics (as reported by a favored politically correct media) that we suddenly become obsessed with gauging our net value to standards written by advertising moguls and plagued by an undermined ethics degenerated in a justification principle. Yet, there so often exists a resilience to change in the wake of this new world that we succumb to the symptoms of this mania, unable to recognize the core truth of ourselves beyond the unit of society who defines us.

I feel failed in attempting to understand this, to define this, or act upon this while witnessing countless acquaintances absorbed in a mass hysterically proposed idea of consumerism, mindlessly buying or devouring items of little necessity for the sake of ‘raising’ their value. There are others I have witnessed that choose to substitute their emptiness by taking power from those around them, controlling behavior in management, or the practice of using romantic facades to temporarily satisfy a false sense of self worth or physical fulfillment. Another acquaintance feels her net worth will rise if she dates ‘socially upward’, sacrificing any and all other responsibilities in her life for the sake of momentarily being able to use or control a suitor for his status, until her emptiness and boredom sets in and she harshly cuts him off. The hurt and negative energy forms multiplying channels of exponentially increasing negative forces, yet each person echoes a justification principle meant to find absolution without truthful confession.

What is this torturous adoption of inadequacy we have chosen in this society? It has become a wonderful tool of the corporate and government financial wheels, as the targeted masses of individuals have become the desperate fund raisers for an ever impulsive power system with only selfish cause. Perhaps history lessons were not clear enough with previous fallen gluttonous empires, as consumers have so willingly paid increasing taxes and purchased store houses of unnecessary goods designed to funnel money to the ‘managers’ of power, military, sweatshops, energy and resources. At the whim of an advertiser’s remark, or a popular celebrity, entrepreneurs and business moguls alike seem thrilled to mass sell millions of ‘fad’ symbols.

A question comes to mind: Where does this end? How many trash bags and storage sheds are needed to supplement the bottomless pit of inadequacy that is the psychological generator of buying frenzies?

Maybe people just require a moment of reconnection of their mind and spirit and body—with more energy to feeding the mind and spirit with the things that have been forgotten, the things of a simpler world and time, the things that remind us how valuable each one of us actually is.

29 November 2009

dealing with reality?

Isn’t it funny how in this mature era of discovery in the human chapters, with all of our technology and advances- our most ‘civilized’ societies have become computer burdened recluses in our four walled shelters?
Scientists have only begun to recently (within the past few decades) remark on the necessity of the human spirit and soul to require the essence of physical contact and touch. They have spoken of the infant chimps who barely survived in angst when neglected of caress; and of the abandoned orphan children near Chernobyl in Russia. The toddlers and pre-adolescent ages behaviors are marked with desperate self-hugging and rocking in place, as though to attempt to grasp a rhythm of a loving physical, tangible heartbeat. The eyes are hollowed symbols of fear and anger, representing the war of the spirit trapped in a physical form that seems doomed to remain segregated from life itself, unwanted, untouched, and unloved. When approached, these spirits that learned only to fear living, cannot comprehend the sensitivities of those who have found the joy of experience in this life. These isolated souls react defensively, again in fear, anger, even jealousy and hatred from any reproach by those of us fortunate enough to grow understanding our physical connections. These souls, are expressing the most genuine form of stress, some even choosing death without ever realizing why.
Why then, do we think we become less in need of such contact now? The years of science and technology has brought us amazing abilities to communicate with wireless transmissions and video plug ins. What an interesting way we interpret ‘staying in touch’. After all the surveys, studies and articles are reviewed- a majority of people in this society are depressed, lonely, ‘needing a hug’. There was a viral video the other year, of people performing ‘random hugs’. After the Virginia Tech shooting, students were giving ‘free hugs’. People go on desperate consumer spending sprees, focus on money and work, crave attention and ‘hook up’ for random sexual encounters, act wildly or lash out all for the sake of something missing in their lives. We have become, so used to a disparity of ‘touch’ and face to face community, replacing it with Facebook and Twitter, My Space and wireless devices, that we seem to be regressing to a state of angst. We tell ourselves to ‘meditate’, to reduce stress, to take vacations. Pharmacy companies and doctors have made it a billion dollar industry to prescribe SSRI’s for SAD. People can no longer handle drama and traumatic events of life (real human emotional ones) anymore in this society. We have become digressed away from core human primal matters and depths of our psyche in pursuit of the "image", "advancement", "material", etc. We force ourselves to ‘snap out of it’ – afraid to admit to ourselves our need for human contact. We are told by corporations and “modern” communities that we ‘ought’ to ‘toughen up’ and survive. Promoters advertise the ‘lone heroes’ and the solo nature travelers as ‘amazing’. Stories of the lone survivors and lone champions are projected as success--- as the strongest and bravest. We are taught we are supposed to overcome, without needing others.
However, eventually, almost none of the ‘loners’ exist truly ‘alone’ their entire lives. Alone people eventually have pets, friends in nature, and companions with whom to grow. Or, they had an amazing support system through out periods of their lives, regardless of spiritual self-strength. It is through this physical contact that our emotional and core human creativity can be supported to grow. This has been a principle root required for intuitive survival, development of societies, discoveries and ingenuity of sciences that advanced us to present day. Without it, we are lost and incapable regardless of our "advances". Facing, living, allowing and dealing with this truth makes us stronger, better, more creative, more intelligent and satisfied (happier) humans with more confidence to face every situation in life with compassion; and stronger in each individual position.
Perhaps we need to study this and realize we grow from connectivity and contact throughout our entire lives and not just during a critical moments of childhood. Perhaps there might have even been an intentional moment during our technological growth that caused us to segregate ourselves from each other. Perhaps by rejecting isolation, we might find new levels of understanding and depend less on self-destructive behavior, anxiety control medication and shopping sprees as forms to fill the voids. Perhaps we need this to remember our connectivity to each other, the world and the universe….

07 November 2009

a philosophy of gratitude and peace

Sometimes, people forget loyalties and gratitude in times of trouble and worry. It is truly unintenional, I believe, however, people forget to recall all the energies freely given to them in exchanges of friendships and family. They forget energy is to be shared and expanded, becoming absorbed in reveling in the soft glow of the light that was given to them.
Unfortunately- when energy is not returned and shared properly, it creates a void, a negative hole- and a wall begins to separate the previous harmony in motion.
Peace and life- is meant to be awareness of the beautiful exchanges that are moments to be shared and never forgotten or taken from another. A true lifestyle change occurs when these things are taken into heart, body, mind and soul---
Once completely accepted as part of one's self-core- and lived as a true philosophy-
then and only then, can we expect to understand how to find peace in the rest of society--