Meditation Exercise IV

(originally meant to publish in 2009 as part 4 to the extended meditation series)

Dancing to the first consciousness…. 

 Focus on the thought of eternal spring--- the first green sprouts poking through the soil, the first buds about to bloom, the first flowers and the first nests with hatchlings joyfully screaming out at the taste of their first meal from their mother… Think about the fresh smell of dirt after a long winter’s snow has melted and the first rains have come. Inhale the scent of the death of the leaves and cold being washed away by the first warm spring sun and rain. Feel the soft light on a chilly morning of spring that promises to bring a warm breeze and warm day by noon… Think about touching a newborn spring puppy’s soft fur, velvety, warm, gentle, full of new life… Hear the birds bellowing out the first songs of spring---- singing loudly as if to taste the fresh air and playfully competing to be the first, the loudest… to find their mate… embrace these thoughts of freshness, of newness… and slow your breathing down, as if to enter a deep sleep…forget everything of this world... leave it behind… then enter yourself… enter your womb, warm and safe, gentle and soothing…… enter your spirit light body and consciousness connected to the universe… focus only on being with the connection of your light and the light at the edge of the universe. Hear the silence and feel the glow and warmth of the light… let it tingle and energize you… and vibrate…. until the first tones begin… feel yourself within the mysterious and amazing sounds… moving with the pitches and becoming the sounds… formless, with light --- lose yourself within the light and the sounds---- become one with it… brilliant colors changing, shifting, pitches blending, flowing, rhythmic, floating--- timeless, nothing and everything, existing and not existing…being… pure… complete… -- only formless energy… one with the movement, the sounds and light… travel with this, without time…. glide and fly…. completely free… no end…. weightless, no end, no beginning…. dancing, blissful… full… just floating…. until in the distance--- far away from the light—in the distant darkness of the universe… something round, moving….spinning… … sail toward it… it has an unusual surface…. peaks and valleys, colors… and something white but murky floating around it… move closer to it—and see it is not still… there is more movement on the surface…. but it moves as one, with its own different rhythm…. different from the light and the tones…. different from the darkness in the universe… sometimes, the movements are gentle— sometimes… it is fierce and fast… so very different, almost angry--- but always moving… with purpose…sharing, needing… swim through the white murky patterns and feel energy rushing to extend to the feel of the movement and life on the surface… and notice on closer exploration there are separate individual forms moving, in less unison… become curious…. feel compelled to explore some of the moving things with form and colors…. hear the foreign sounds of these forms… feel the rush of energy sparking formless light and see how they move with a different life… separate but within the universe…. merge with one of them…. feel the energies colliding and shocking---- feel the sensations so unfamiliar from the light--- strange, dizzying, lost, beautiful, tickling… tingling… as sense of taste, touch, primitive sounds…. feel the shock and the grace----- hold on to the waves of blindness and light as you suddenly feel pain for the first time… and a strange sense --- very passionate--- with a force and energy--- a fury--- a newness--- a strangeness--- an emptiness and a sadness—then, a rage ---- an energy of fire --- and you become confused… uncertain… but exhilarated--- at this newness… bound by form… and you are suddenly bound… as you try to free yourself— the arms move--- the fingers stretch outward---the legs move--- the feet kicks.. you are within the body— you are a new consciousness… you are one with the body… as a new wave of sensation, an anxiousness—a fear – comes upon you--- a memory intervenes… the light… the loving energy of the light--- the warmth and how the light led your new found curiosity to this place--- this body… and see the colors and feel the touch of the surface through the body---- feel the awakening… and the gift.. feel the hands and fingers move to your will for the first time… feel form and structure for the first time… feel the boundaries of the body--- hear the heartbeat and the skin rubbing together… feel the formless air coming through the nostrils and hear the sound of breathing… hear your heartbeat--- your own rhythm… feel a new awareness… feel the sun on the skin for the first time… feel movement of the legs before moving in space… feel the wind breeze through the hair and across the body. Feel chilled for the first time… hear the sounds pierce your body and spirit---- hear the stomach rumble for the first time… be in amazement as you move the tongue and taste your teeth and the insides of your mouth… salivate to the craving of feeding your hunger… and experiencing newness… as the energy explodes within--- as your widened vision searches for new things to touch and feel--- breathe in the smells of freshness--- the new soil, the leaves--- the mist. Smell the stench of the swamps as the mist rises in the morning sun… hear the sounds of creatures fighting and hunting in the distance… embrace the activity, the life--- enjoy the movement as newborn jaguar-like cubs play and attempt to growl… see the birds flying in the distance… smell the flowers in a meadow near-by ---- feel the pulse of the earth beneath your feet… the vibrations of life begun… feel amazed by the gift of this experience… the joy--- the new freedom to move within your boundaries --- to experience being in one consciousness… in one form… to experience newness and a new beginning… feel this experience with the depths of your heart, spirit and senses… breathe it in. 

 When called to return ---- breathe your life in---- feel the rush of life and energy and light lead your connection back to this time --- to this world… see the history unravel and lead you to this new modern world again… in this form… feel your clothes covering your body comfortably--- feel the floor and seat beneath you vibrating with the force of life from the earth… as it spins through the solar system and the universe… feel the gift of this time, this experience… with the connection from the light in tact… how your experiences are exchanged through to the light… how the energy exchange grows… how unique you are… breathe in the sun, feel the lightness of your being…the body awakening… the stretch of the muscles infusing with breath and light… with the sharp senses as with the first being and first conscious awakening--- feeling every touch, hearing every sound, smelling every smell, tasting every food…seeing with clarity… depth of spirit… ready for the adventure… and awaiting your instructions from the universe… open your eyes and become…

meditation exercise I

choose a soothing background sound, like a very soft meditative music album, or, listen to sounds of nature while visualizing a smooth flowing ocean current, swishing against the worn stones and sand by the water's edge, with a late spring sun warming the skin and a gentle wind breathing into the roots of the hairs ------
and listen to an occasional bird lit golden by the rays of the sun, one that might whistle overhead while gliding across a perfectly blue sky.

Let the rhythmic tide wash in then dissolve outward, in a very slow cradle like rocking, gentle, slow, like a sleeping heartbeat. Breathe to the sway of the ocean at the most peaceful sunrise, gently, peacefully--- dare not to let the sounds of the tide be disturbed by your breath. Let yourself ascend and become mystified, light-headed, slowly breathing in the sea mist --- and feel each invisible droplet of energy, of the beginning of life, of the same salt water that is flowing through our own veins. Let the mist infuse the body through the lungs, let the energy merge into your blood--- a golden energy originating from the center of the universe from the very beginning of time.

Let the golden energy alight your spirit with warm golden hues that reach out the smallest sparks and rays---

Let those rays reach out and extend to find the bird that flew across the blue sky---
breathe in--- then as you slowly breathe out, let the golden rays from your body reach out and attach itself to the bird flying higher towards the sunlight--- higher into the sky--- farther towards the stars in the universe----

Fly with the bird until you start to reach the edge of space far above the atmosphere of the earth--- and see the wonder of the planets and satellites floating and spinning in all directions-- weightless, but with just enough gravity to hold orbit--- but you are weightless and flying with the golden bird....

Fly beyond the universe, past the darkest blackness ---- until it is so dark you cannot see the bird, but you can feel and know the bird is still guiding you and pulling you to your destination---

Fly with the bird through the darkness until there is no more darkness left---

into the whitest most brilliant light --- where there is nothing else but the brilliant warm light, perfect silence, and the bird that still leads you --- the golden shine of the bird melds into the brilliance of the light and there is then nothing left but the peacefulness and your consciousness, knowing you are there and being fed by this perfect light and peace.

Let the stillness and silence be so pure and deafening... that finally--- there is a sound, a gentle soothing sound. A tone, musical, simple, yet somehow, there is a message. Feel each sound and tone...

See a glow coming from each sound and tone, see colors come out of the light and glow with each tone...

See the colors grow from the sounds and tone--- each one unique and pulsing with the beautiful sound---- pulsing, percussive, with a message...

A single thought or word, with each sound and tone--- a beautiful and powerful message, just for you and no one else.

Then see the word --- see the transformation of the word into a picture within the brilliant light that frames it------

When all the tones are transformed into the final picture, fold the picture gently, carefully-- and cup it into the palm of your hands. Caress it, place it into your heart and memory. Then as the bird whistles, follow the whistle until the bird leads your back through the universe, back to the earth. Glide with the bird down to the edge of the water. Gently land on the sand. Feel each grain of sand tickling, then massaging the skin on your feet. Start to walk on the sand, one step at a time and let the bird release you---

Let the brilliant blue of the sky flush color into your eyes and let the crashing sounds of the tide beat like a slow drum as you walk, then run, and sprint --- then
walk again fast, and be tickled by the water, and watch a dog snap back from a crab --- and laugh at the expression on the dog's face----

then awaken with a great deep breath ---- refreshed --- at peace ----

with the vision of a unique message from the universe, captured in your mind--- to guide your wakened soul into your waking hours.

meditation exercise II

Find a very comfortable and peaceful sunny spot, or a good bright lamp. Close your eyes and face the light as directly as you can. Keep your eyes closed for this entire vision journey. Let the light on your closed eyes be so bright that it is hard to see darkness---

Let the light remind you of the first journey at the edge of the universe. So peaceful, like the golden bird gliding through space… disappearing as it was immersed by light. Let the light cast warmth on you. This time, feel it beaming onto your forehead and cascading over your eyelids. Feel a glow vibrating and radiating from the skin of your eyelids. Let your body settle into its center and pause.... sit with the moment. See the insides of your eyelids--- the light casting color inside resting eyelids. Feel how it is like a warm towel gently across the face---- see the pink and green hues cast of the light inside your eyelids.

Keeping your eyes closed, move the eyes around in circles, or horizontally or vertically, without pattern. Feel the eyeballs inside the sockets, floating within their orbits, attached, but somewhat independent-- as if they could almost have a life of their own. Let the eyes move around a little more, slowing the movement down. Gently, slowly... explore how much the eyes will stretch their movement at your asking. Give the eyes so much room to move-- let them stretch so far, that the head may try to follow the movement of the eyes.

Let the eyes find a comfortable seat in the sockets--- let them sway to the calm rhythm of breathing --- let them slow, until they rest... and you become only aware of warmth and light enveloping the calm closed eyes...... and your slow, relaxed breathing...hear the breathing for a moment ...

then within the mind, see how the cascading light moves in tiny pulses and beams against the shaded background... see the light moving... washing, caressing, cascading... like a gentle mist on a sunny day, casting many colors, as a rainbow....

... let the brightest and warmest gentle mist of the colorful light be felt by your nostrils---- coming into your nostrils with each breath drawn in. See it moving, around the back of the sinus, down your throat--- feel the warm of the light caressing and entering the bronchial tubes and expanding the lungs...

feel the expansion and contraction of the lungs and chest... see the light casting a healing, powerful glow into the lungs... and see it glowing there... even as you breathe out--- see it getting stronger with each breath drawn in... and watch the little rays of light form tiny energy beams that move with the capillaries of the lungs, gently flowing.... to the heart.... until the entire lungs and rib cage become a single shining light, alive, with the brightest concentration of light, at the heart...

See the ball of light enveloping the heart, outlining and forming the heart...
feel how it warms the heart, how it moves with the heart...
hear each beat of the heart... surge energy into the light... expanding, contracting---
until the overflow rushes into the arteries... with each pulse... traveling... warming... glowing healing newborn energy--- from the sun, from the universe... distant stars....

watch and feel the movement of the energizing light streaming and moving through the vessels of the body... travel with it, around the stomach and abdomen... move slowly with it, to feel each organ, each rib and bone in the body…see each part infused with energy...

travel through ---feel the amazement of the organs together, so perfectly.... living as one...
explore and feel every space inside the body with the light... feel the muscles around each area moving, in unison... light infusing each strand through the life giving vessels that rush through...

continue to follow the light through vessels down into each leg,... alighting each area, down through the thigh... going around the knee, massaging the calf, sliding down the Achilles... streaming into the foot... see the entire leg shining, infused, with the light...

then each arm, to the hands.. one at a time slowly through the elbows...then, each part of the spine... to the very top of the head... until the you feel the rush of energy crawling from the top of the spine through the follicles and the top of the head... radiating..... until the body is completely outlined and radiating light... completely at one with your vision... with your spirit and mind... ... relaxed as one... be awed and amazed at the gift of feeling each part of the body... feel the healing and warm light infusing…

listen to each organ and cell... feel how each part is as one... how each is grateful for life... for connection... for movement... for breath... and how the light is grateful to enter and feel each microcosm and cell within this unique body….

when ready---- keep the eyes closed, and slowly let the head drop and roll the back down to stretch the spine... roll back up to straighten...
move and straighten the fingers and rotate the wrists... eventually stretching the arms...
and breathe in a deep breath... exhale any stale air and excess energy.... breathe in again deeply..

see the light encircling you, still enveloping your body, but starting to move around you like a gentle wind... see it blowing like a feather… surging gentle electric vibrations…
let it dissipate with the air around you... but continue to hold the traces and warmth in your body... as you move your head away from the bright light...

tighten the muscles in your abdomen... straighten your spine again... roll your shoulders... take five faster breaths.... (you may feel like yawning at this time)---
open your mouth and breathe through your mouth a few more times...

slowly open your eyes………take a moment to adjust your focus--- then ---
stretch your body gently, stand... balance, awaken ....

meditation exercise III

Envision your body as pure light after drawing the misty rainbows through your nostrils from the sun and the universe.
Explore the radiance of your unique self in form--- and become comfortable with your light body---

Feel light, floating, energized and radiant in every cell... alive and sparking... surging from the heart, through the limbs and the spine... through the top of the spine into the base of the head... to the very top of the head... until you feel the rush of electric energy crawling through each of the follicles and the top of the head...sparking... tingling...pulsing….

feel this energy tingling your toes, your finger tips... hear it exploding outward with your spirit... expanding your aura---- freeing your spirit like an eagle taking flight from its nest on a picturesque mountain --

feel your arms tingle with the anticipation of spreading like wings with multi-colored feathers--- pulling you—stretching your mind as you feel lighter… flying… your spirit free, formless or in the outline of your body, if you choose, but without any boundaries….

until you are only light and air, free to glide effortless, dancing with the winds like an butterfly floating in a warm breeze and playfully twirling against a deep blue sky…

feel the connection of the light from the sun and the light of your spirit moving you further up in the sky like a balloon let go by a child - fly higher with the balloon, reaching out into the universe, into space…. to other planets… and galaxies… to other stars….
Float weightless in the universe… let the darkness feel like a gentle, soft, warm womb…. and watch the light from your spirit set a glow of energy in this darkness…

While gliding harmoniously in this vast space… see yourself spinning and playing and moving through galaxies and around planets and stars… listen to the gentle whispers and pitches from your movement in the universe ---

Watch and listen as the rays from your spirit spark off from sparklers from firecrackers…
Follow one of the sparks and be mesmerized by it spinning and growing, exploding into a newborn star, becoming life, energy -- then another spark, then another star…and another

See how your light beams through the reaches of the universe... feel the light of your vision, from depths of your soul... being like one of the millions of stars...

Merging with the rays of the farthest stars...
until connecting to the place you visited before, the place beyond the edges of the universe, where there is no darkness... and where the beautiful tones gently sooth and convey thought and energy… listening for your sparks and whispers and your energy---

As it always has been…. and forever endless… and beyond all boundaries…
feel this thought… know this thought… born anew… craving the songs, visions of life…

When ready to return…. follow the trails of light to the newborn stars, let the traces of sounds lead you back through the darkness… to the other stars… to the other planets….
leaving a thin trail of light and a hum connected to each place.. Connected to you, your light… always connected…. living…
receiving and exchanging energies and thoughts…
like a consciousness connected timelessly…always awake… alive

Then become like an eagle landing… spy a soft clearing with fresh young grass, on soft soil, moist with dew... Swoop down and land on the grass gently with your bare feet.
Feel the energy of the grass surging into the soles with the energy radiating from earth.
Scream like the eagle within your mind and soul--- hear the high pitch echo the songs of the universe….

Let the energy of the earth tingle through the body, traveling through your spine to awaken your limbs and your muscles…
let it feel like a wonderful stretch after a perfect night’s rest on a comfortable feather bed, see a warm, sunlit morning… feeling like you’ve risen from the deepest tender sleep and loving caress…

Then yawn to breathe deeply… and breathe out your first morning breath… as if to greet a first new day… remembering each detail of your dream…still connected to the light…
anticipating the exchange of messages through this connection as it is born in your waking conscious again…
alert….
alive…
living...
then open your eyes…
ground yourself to your physical world….