Meditation Exercise IV

(originally meant to publish in 2009 as part 4 to the extended meditation series)

Dancing to the first consciousness…. 

 Focus on the thought of eternal spring--- the first green sprouts poking through the soil, the first buds about to bloom, the first flowers and the first nests with hatchlings joyfully screaming out at the taste of their first meal from their mother… Think about the fresh smell of dirt after a long winter’s snow has melted and the first rains have come. Inhale the scent of the death of the leaves and cold being washed away by the first warm spring sun and rain. Feel the soft light on a chilly morning of spring that promises to bring a warm breeze and warm day by noon… Think about touching a newborn spring puppy’s soft fur, velvety, warm, gentle, full of new life… Hear the birds bellowing out the first songs of spring---- singing loudly as if to taste the fresh air and playfully competing to be the first, the loudest… to find their mate… embrace these thoughts of freshness, of newness… and slow your breathing down, as if to enter a deep sleep…forget everything of this world... leave it behind… then enter yourself… enter your womb, warm and safe, gentle and soothing…… enter your spirit light body and consciousness connected to the universe… focus only on being with the connection of your light and the light at the edge of the universe. Hear the silence and feel the glow and warmth of the light… let it tingle and energize you… and vibrate…. until the first tones begin… feel yourself within the mysterious and amazing sounds… moving with the pitches and becoming the sounds… formless, with light --- lose yourself within the light and the sounds---- become one with it… brilliant colors changing, shifting, pitches blending, flowing, rhythmic, floating--- timeless, nothing and everything, existing and not existing…being… pure… complete… -- only formless energy… one with the movement, the sounds and light… travel with this, without time…. glide and fly…. completely free… no end…. weightless, no end, no beginning…. dancing, blissful… full… just floating…. until in the distance--- far away from the light—in the distant darkness of the universe… something round, moving….spinning… … sail toward it… it has an unusual surface…. peaks and valleys, colors… and something white but murky floating around it… move closer to it—and see it is not still… there is more movement on the surface…. but it moves as one, with its own different rhythm…. different from the light and the tones…. different from the darkness in the universe… sometimes, the movements are gentle— sometimes… it is fierce and fast… so very different, almost angry--- but always moving… with purpose…sharing, needing… swim through the white murky patterns and feel energy rushing to extend to the feel of the movement and life on the surface… and notice on closer exploration there are separate individual forms moving, in less unison… become curious…. feel compelled to explore some of the moving things with form and colors…. hear the foreign sounds of these forms… feel the rush of energy sparking formless light and see how they move with a different life… separate but within the universe…. merge with one of them…. feel the energies colliding and shocking---- feel the sensations so unfamiliar from the light--- strange, dizzying, lost, beautiful, tickling… tingling… as sense of taste, touch, primitive sounds…. feel the shock and the grace----- hold on to the waves of blindness and light as you suddenly feel pain for the first time… and a strange sense --- very passionate--- with a force and energy--- a fury--- a newness--- a strangeness--- an emptiness and a sadness—then, a rage ---- an energy of fire --- and you become confused… uncertain… but exhilarated--- at this newness… bound by form… and you are suddenly bound… as you try to free yourself— the arms move--- the fingers stretch outward---the legs move--- the feet kicks.. you are within the body— you are a new consciousness… you are one with the body… as a new wave of sensation, an anxiousness—a fear – comes upon you--- a memory intervenes… the light… the loving energy of the light--- the warmth and how the light led your new found curiosity to this place--- this body… and see the colors and feel the touch of the surface through the body---- feel the awakening… and the gift.. feel the hands and fingers move to your will for the first time… feel form and structure for the first time… feel the boundaries of the body--- hear the heartbeat and the skin rubbing together… feel the formless air coming through the nostrils and hear the sound of breathing… hear your heartbeat--- your own rhythm… feel a new awareness… feel the sun on the skin for the first time… feel movement of the legs before moving in space… feel the wind breeze through the hair and across the body. Feel chilled for the first time… hear the sounds pierce your body and spirit---- hear the stomach rumble for the first time… be in amazement as you move the tongue and taste your teeth and the insides of your mouth… salivate to the craving of feeding your hunger… and experiencing newness… as the energy explodes within--- as your widened vision searches for new things to touch and feel--- breathe in the smells of freshness--- the new soil, the leaves--- the mist. Smell the stench of the swamps as the mist rises in the morning sun… hear the sounds of creatures fighting and hunting in the distance… embrace the activity, the life--- enjoy the movement as newborn jaguar-like cubs play and attempt to growl… see the birds flying in the distance… smell the flowers in a meadow near-by ---- feel the pulse of the earth beneath your feet… the vibrations of life begun… feel amazed by the gift of this experience… the joy--- the new freedom to move within your boundaries --- to experience being in one consciousness… in one form… to experience newness and a new beginning… feel this experience with the depths of your heart, spirit and senses… breathe it in. 

 When called to return ---- breathe your life in---- feel the rush of life and energy and light lead your connection back to this time --- to this world… see the history unravel and lead you to this new modern world again… in this form… feel your clothes covering your body comfortably--- feel the floor and seat beneath you vibrating with the force of life from the earth… as it spins through the solar system and the universe… feel the gift of this time, this experience… with the connection from the light in tact… how your experiences are exchanged through to the light… how the energy exchange grows… how unique you are… breathe in the sun, feel the lightness of your being…the body awakening… the stretch of the muscles infusing with breath and light… with the sharp senses as with the first being and first conscious awakening--- feeling every touch, hearing every sound, smelling every smell, tasting every food…seeing with clarity… depth of spirit… ready for the adventure… and awaiting your instructions from the universe… open your eyes and become…